We are nearing the end of NaNoWriMo! I can't believe how fast this month has gone and I didn't even participate. In fact I never participate and there are many reasons for it.
I don't necessarily agree with NaNoWriMo. I think that a novel should be written with care and in one's own time. You cannot ask the sun to rotate around the earth faster than it does. I think that it puts pressure on those who aren't participating and it makes them feel bad about themselves, their capabilities and their works. It also takes the joy out of the writing process. Writing (despite being hard work) should be fun and it should connect you with your characters at a your own pace.
However, what I do like about it is that it brings people together and they help one another through this time. I am apart of many NaNoWriMo groups and take part in write-ins when I can despite not participating. I do so because there is nothing like the connected feeling of being around other writers writing. Also, it gets people moving and sometimes that pressure is what they need. A deadline springs people into action, so in that way it can be a good thing.
Unfortunately, I like my own pace better and do not want to resemble any kind of NaNo meme, such as this one:
I don't know if I would be successful and complete the 50K words in one month. I know that I should have more faith in myself but... I really don't think I'd finish it in time and I wouldn't like that. I know that the point of the month is to get yourself writing and it shouldn't matter whether you complete the allocated amount of words, but to me it would matter. I don't like failing at things, and at the same time I'm not great with deadlines. I like to push them and ignore them whenever possible!
I was no where near ready. At the end of October I decided that I was going to press the restart button on my novel. I was "just writing" and I continued on despite many, many, hurdles along the way. I then stopped and took a look at my situation. I needed to start afresh and do it right this time. I am currently still in the preparation stages of my novel and I am not ready to start writing yet.
I have always wanted to do NaNoWriMo but this time of year is always the worst. In Australia, our final exams for school or university come to a head in November before the summer holiday starts (it spans from mid November to about late February). For me it is very stressful and I usually take a few weeks off writing at this time to cram, cram, cram. So, from the middle of October I start studying and do not stop until half way through NaNo. I always feel that I cannot start in the middle of the month otherwise I was setting myself up for disaster.
I am not really good at deadlines and my life is always hectic in November after exams too. I work full time and go out after work and on weekends. I literally go out at 8 am and don't get home until midnight each night. It isn't really indicative to writing. It will calm down later on, but for me the end of November is celebratory. I see my friends who, like myself, entered into the study cave for weeks on end. I have my nights and weekends free to do go out and eat, see movies that I've been longing to see, to go to the beach or to go to festivals I had been abstaining from the last 14 weeks of my life. Being a student sucks.
For me, NaNo comes at such a bad time of the year. Even the Camp NaNoWriMo comes in June- another exam time. So you know what. I am going to give myself my own NaNoWriMo this December! I kid you not. I will make this December my own personal writing month to get 50K words down for my novel. This means that I have 9 days to get my act together. I regret this decision already, but I won't press the backspace button because I feel I must do this otherwise, this novel may never get finished. It is starting to feel like that. I also promised that I will give myself until Christmas to figure out my novel before I give it the axe (for now). For those, who don't know I've been struggling with my novel for a while now. I love it and I want to finish it because it has been stuck in my mind for years now. If it hasn't died by now it is something special in my opinion. However, if it hasn't worked out by 25th of December I will start my next series of novels and come back to this one later. I guess, how well my own NaNoWriMo goes will be the deciding factor in my decision to carry on or not.