We come to the end of the month of May and I can scarcely believe that it is June. Where did the year go? Please, tell me I would really like to know! This year is going so quickly and I am no where near finishing my novel. Once again I must size up how I have done and reevaluate so that I can fit writing in this coming month of June.
Nevertheless, my writing has been very insubstantial and I struggled to get to my May word limit of 10,000. At the end I was churning out the words like a mad woman because as of the 19th of May I only had written 7,200. I had finished a chapter by this point and had taken four days off to study for my impending exams and to finish my blog posts for the next few weeks so I wouldn’t have to worry about them during the exam period. Either way I concluded the month going over my monthly word limit of 10,000 and achieving 12,000 words. This was a short chapter! I can't help but laugh.
I was riddled with problems this month which include having a lot of writer's doubt and feeling disconnected from my characters. Not only that but I the slow progress is upsetting me as I really wanted to get the second draft finished by the end of the year. I feel like the clock is ticking. It is as if I am talking about my maternal clock and I guess in a way it is true as this book is my baby. I must mention that I did break my cardinal rule of not writing for no more than two days. I feel bad but it couldn’t be helped and so I had an reluctant four day break. Although, I awoke each day thinking I could get it in there- it is the thought that counts.
Further, by this negativity happening I was drawn to many issues which I have began to resolve and which will positively impact my writing in the next few months. In order to get close to my characters again I have started a journal for them. I only write in one so far (my character Killian) as my book focuses on him at the moment. What I do is I write his diary entry about how he feels regarding the events unfolding around him. Thus far it has been eye opening and I feel like I am meeting him again for the first time (cue The Script music). It was such a good exercise I found myself crying in an emotional scene I wrote for him. This is something I have not yet done while writing for Killian. I actually knew where he was coming from and felt his pain. Not only this, but I started drawing my characters and this helped me imagine them fully in my mind in a way that is hard to explain.
In relation to my slow progress, I have come to find through conversations with people that I write a lot. What I mean by a lot is that my standard chapter is 14K. I know that it is an extremely high number considering the fact that fantasies are meant to be around 100K. I am only half way in my novel and despite not having it all compiled into one document, I know roughly how much I have written and it is probably 50-60K. This is stressing me because I am only half way through writing my book, if that. So what I have decided I will do in the coming months, is not to waffle on and get to the point. I guess I have been so in love with my story I wanted to explain every detail. I still intend to do that but more concisely.
Thus, in conclusion of my waffling and with the exam time coming fast in June I will be reducing my word count to 5000 words. That is manageable considering I won’t have time to breath or move, only think- about law and that horror it causes me. Not to mention that I have given up on writing in the mornings, it is not happening and I do not want to delude myself any longer. I am a night owl, but I also resolve that I will not go to bed at 2am anymore.
I hope your writing is going well!