First of all, I want to say thank you for reading! This is the first blog that I have ever done and is also the first time that I have ever talked about my writing. Talking about my stories and ideas is something nerve wracking and personal for me! I have never thought that I would ever blog about it in my wildest dreams! But, I suppose that is what the journey to progress your writing is about. I must learn to overcoming my fears and grow as a person. Click the Read More button to learn more about my beginnings of my writing journey!
Writing for me, is something extremely personal. I see stories in my mind all the time which I want to jot down and express, but I have never talked about it. It was always something that I did for my own pleasure and it was the only hobby that I stuck to as a kid. I have tried over the years to play piano, violin, guitar, singing and every sport imaginable. One after the other I quit, but the only thing that I ever went back to was writing. That is because when an idea hits me, it takes over my mind. I see it within my mind’s eye everywhere I go, unfolding before me as if it had a life of its own. I become obsessed with it.
I wrote my first book when I was ten years old. I remember waking up that morning after having a nightmare, in which I remember thinking as I slept, that this would be an awesome story to write down. Obviously, it was about monsters and a group of young heroes. I hand wrote every single page and put it in a blue insert folder, which now sits in my book stand. From then on, all my ideas have started out as a dream. I have begun many stories over the years, but I have never actually finished any of them since my very first one all those years ago.
I know why I never finished them. It was because I was trying to be one of those writers whose stories just develop as they go along. I wanted to be one of those 'talents' and I never recorded any ideas that I had other than a short synopsis. I wanted to be the writer that doesn't know who the killer is until the end. This was my down fall. I would have a great idea about the plot (which I didn't write down) and I forgot it as quickly as it arose.
Now I know not to be like that, and in fact, that those organic, creative writers do not exist. Well to be honest they might exist, but I have never encountered any, nor have any published authors I have met. You have to plan, you have to think out everything and you have to know your characters inside and out.
The book I am currently working on, I started two years ago. It was a dream, but it was not like the other dreams I have had which have shown me lots of different scenes to put in the book. This one was like a strip tease, it gave me a snippet of the first scene (not even the whole scene) and then I woke up, I knew I wanted to write this. Why? I do not know, because all the scene showed was a young man sitting by a tree on the edge of a frozen lake and a girl running over the ice. Over the next few days it morphed into this great beast fuelled by my own imagination. I began typing it out and this time I even wrote a plot, which to this day I am still adding elements. I have been working on it on and off for a long time. I was focused on university and last year I started full time work in conjunction with full time study. Which meant that my weekends and any free time were taken up by uni work. It left me no time to write or do anything creative.
I forced myself during this time to think about my characters, scenes and plot everyday so that I wouldn't forget about it. I knew that this is the one that I was determined to finish. However, in hindsight I took the same approach that I always had. I wrote whenever I felt like it, I didn't do any preplanning or delved deep into the world and its culture, nor even the twisted minds of my characters.
It was only until I was really unhappy at work in the legal sphere, where I began to think that there has to be more to life than this, because this... is crap. I follow a lot of health and sports stars on social media and they always say you can follow your dreams, you just have to have the courage to try. At this point, not wanting to get up in the morning and fake smile at my boss, I thought to myself, what do I honestly want to do? Apart from Archaeology, it was the answer I knew my whole life but never said and that was writing.
This is what I want to do as a career and it is something that comes so naturally to me. However, whether I have the skill is another issue as no one has EVER read anything that I have written... Baby steps...
Where I am heading:
I have decided to get serious about my writing and my new year’s resolution is to finish this book once and for all. I have begun to do things that I have never done before. I have looked individually at my characters and have discovered all their hopes and dreams. I have imagined myself living in their land to 'experience' what their everyday lives would be like and how would I act were I one of them, what is the culture like? I have bought a journal to write down ideas and I take it everywhere (like the beach the other day). I have done so many things that I am going to share with you that have helped me get further than I thought possible in my book when I started two years ago. I know that I am still in the beginning stages of writing my novel, but now I am actually approaching the middle. I am so excited, you have no idea, because I feel like I can see the end of the tunnel approaching slowly.
I still have struggles, for instance, I know that my grammar is not the greatest in the world. I also know that I have had the problem of mixing Australian spelling and American spelling since I was in primary school. I struggle writing scenes with fighting in it or battles for instance, and this is because I don't do the appropriate research and sometimes I don't plan out the scene I am going to write. Sometimes, they write me.
The reason I am writing this blog is so that others out there like me, who have a story inside them, are encouraged to begin to write or keep going. It is okay to struggle and mess up, but as I am sure all you writers out there have heard- no one is going to write it for you. Your mind is unique and no one will create the way you can.