Seriously, what have I been doing the last few weeks? I haven’t had uni because my classes were on public holidays and then it was followed by a mid-semester break. I have barely had time to blog and write! But I have not been studying and instead I have had the Easter Show (a huge festival), worked a little and gone out with friends and family. Either way, at the end of the day I am in my bed and not writing. I am asking myself, what am I really doing that I cannot write? I know I am a creature who craves structure and high pressure. I don’t know why, but when I have deadlines and a routine, I am at my peak. Other than that, I’m the procrastinator. Uni starts again next week and I am so excited to go back. Which has never happened. It’s funny, the reason I want to go back is for my writing but I am not even doing creative writing as my degree.
I am craving my old schedule so badly and it got me thinking about other writers and the way they write. It is my overall view that most writers are “organised writers” who plan and have schedules to make time to write. Whereas, the minority are those writers who never plan, never plot and somehow make a book. I have tried both and I feel that being an “organised writer” is the way to go for me. I can’t not plan. It is the way I am. I am a control freak. I am not afraid to admit it and I am proud that I am this way. I don’t know what that says about me, but if I did not plan nothing would ever get done.
Now that I think about it, maybe being a full time writer wouldn’t suit me. I probably wouldn’t even write. I would most likely not even go near my computer and just watch TV all day. I like Doctor Oz and reruns of That 70’s Show. Then again, I might dominate as being a full time writer. I have never had the experience of letting myself sit and write all day bar one just before uni started this year and I smashed out around 20 pages.
It is weird that despite my feeling extremely lazy these two weeks, in the sessions where I did write I was really productive. I have been writing around 1000 words each sitting, whereas before it was a struggle to get out 500. So not having uni has helped rest my brain and let the juices flow.
Also, it is important not to forget life. You have a word outside of writing and I seemed to have forgotten that for a time. However, the last two weeks I have enjoyed myself and have been less in the clouds and more in the moment. It is fantastic to live and breathe the world you create, but what about the world you live in. What about your family and friends? They need you more than your characters in your mind need your friendship.
I have decided that I need to change things up around in my life to ensure that I get the most out of absolutely everything I do. I reiterate once again, I will try to go to bed earlier and I will, in effect, wake up earlier (which will start from tomorrow as it is 12:30am now). I will dedicate my mornings for at least an hour to write a bit more of my book and I know I have said this before, but I did end up doing it a couple days and liked it. I will try to cut down my social media obsessing and focus on life.
This post is confusing but I want to share with you my journey and how my writing life is progressing. Plus, this is my “diary” section of the blog, so you see the way my mind works in leaps and bounds. It is complete and utter honesty on my part. It is a midnight mind of a lazy and tired writer, despite doing nothing all day except for eat, watch Sakura and Orange is the New Black, drink 7 cups of Earl Grey, read Red Queen a bit, worked and studied for revenue law. There are birds in my roof and its freaking me out (seriously, as I am writing this they are wrestling and talking).
Let me know how you operate when it comes to your writing? Are you a planner or no? If you are a free spirited kind of a writer, please let me know how on earth you do it! No, seriously I would love to know how you get from a blank page to a manuscript. Plus, tell me what stages you are at with your own works and where you think they are going.